Today was a tad stressful for Shadowsbaby, guys. First I took my cat to the vet for emergency surgery and spent the afternoon worrying about how he was going to handle the stress of anesthesia and recovery, with his poor old body and failing kidneys. Then I heard the price tag for this surgery and started worrying about how I’m going to manage to pay the vet bill tomorrow! I’ve been thinking lately that it might be kinder to poor Duncan to let him go, but I don’t know how to make that decision. How do I know if he’s really suffering? What if I made the wrong choice? You know? And in the midst of all this worry and turmoil, my father calls from the emergency room! Something wrong with his heart, possibly complications from a new medication? I don’t know; I didn’t get the whole story. He says he’s fine. I don’t think I believe him.
So now I don’t know who to fret about first, my dad or my cat! Every time I catch myself thinking about one, I feel guilty for not worrying about the other. My husband didn’t help matters by casually mentioning that deaths come in threes, and an old friend of mine died this week. Ugh. Thanks, hon.
With all this horrible oozing worry mounting, I need to get out of my head for awhile, and I have just the solution. Have you ever colored a mandala?
They’re so soothing. Coloring mandalas is the best way I know to get my mind out of the relentless anxiety spirals it occasionally falls into. Here’s the one I made tonight:
I got the coloring pages from this website:
but you can find free printable mandalas on dozens of sites and whole books of them in craft stores. Try it! Between blogging and coloring, I think I’ve gotten enough of this worry out of my head that I can go to sleep now. Goodnight, Bohemians!